Slamming on his brakes, while raising his arm preparing for a stern backhand, I saw my worst nightmare unfolding in front of me. He stopped himself before inflicting pain across my face, as he violently ripped my belongs from my possession & tossed them on the side of the freeway. He called me a stupid, fucking bitch while physically pushing me out of his $100 thousand dollar sports car. ▪️As we were entering the 8West on Saturday, January 11th, I became a victim of domestic violence.▪️My life quickly changed; I will never be the same woman again.▪️His customized license plates spells out ‘EN2PNER’, when it should read ‘MONSTER’. A so-called ‘man’ who ran away from the family abuse, yet chose to carry & expose the evil trait along with him. A sad, lonely boy who buried his pain in financial success. A selfish, evil coward who uses money as a tool to inflict mental & physical pain on others. A disturbing, lonely human who finds pleasure & regularity in degrading people. An entitled, pathetic soul who finds joy & egotistical power by putting others down. A narcissistic, out of control, monster who took my life into his hands own hands. A cowardly poor excuse for a man with a punctured ego & burnt heart. A perfect example of a broken person with nothing but objects to fill his empty soul.▪️As quickly as my tears came rushing in, a restraining order was put into motion. I’ll never forget the look of two male police officers who cradled me in security & promised to be by my side during this tragic situation. Calling the on-duty California state judge at 11pm to legalize a restraining order, not only filled my heart with pure sadness & indescribable shame, it left me questioning, ‘How did I let this happen to me?’ The feeling of embarrassment, & emptiness surrounds my soul as I struggle to wrap my head around this. Finding acceptance will be the beginning to an end. I have allowed myself to build strength & determination. Promised myself to not let this situation to go unspoken, to be buried nor ignored. Staying silent only gives our offenders the power. To be a survivor of DV, we must be brave, stay strong, & be true to ourselves, my friends x
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